Have You Seen Me?

I feel like I should put my face on a milk carton and put it in the fridge so my husband can remember who I am.

Of course, there are a few problems with this, foremost being we don't have any milk. Secondmost might involve the fact that we never have milk...even when I've been to the grocery store in the last oh...month.

So, after having worked on Saturday, I drag myself into the office with fear and loathing, feeling like I should have trenches about 6 inches deep from where I have dug in my heels and resisted the inexorable pull of this place. But instead, I find myself in my office again. Totally unmotivated. I have a lot I should be doing. A lot. Tons. Possibly megatons. I am doing none of it. Instead, I am contemplating the fact that my aunt-in-law gets all the Jewish Holidays (plus Christmas) off for her job and my next vacation is the 4th of July, which I will spend at a wedding and the majority of my husband's family. This is not too horrible, as I adore my husband's extended family. It's his immediate family I have issues with. And yes, they're going to be there. No vacation for you, two months! (Seriously...the next day off is Labor Day.)

We have been interviewing cleaning people. Because neither of us really have the time or inclination to keep the house as clean as we'd both like it to be. So, while we're interviewing and trying to decide if we really want/need to hire a housekeeper, neither of us has done anything that might involve cleaning beyond a simple tidy-up. Consequently, my house is so filthy it's driving me insane and I am going to have to break down and spend the time to clean it, probably tonight, because it just bugs me. I dreamt about vaccuming last night because I'm so annoyed by how filthy my house is. I mentioned this to Tim. He said why not hold off til we hire someone...and all I can think is that's the spurious reasoning that got us in this situation to start off with.

Mom forwarded me an article about how the Star Wars 3 movie has lots of Bush-slamming propaganda in it. While I don't doubt that this is true, I think it takes an interesting brain to look for and find it. It totally escaped me, and usually I see that. Of course, it was 1am when I saw it. And...as much as we, as a society, have become immune to violence through the media, I think in a lot of ways we've also become immune to the slams that conservatives (especially conservative Christians) consistently take in all forms of "entertainment". It's just one more arm getting ripped off and spurting blood...oh now it's just another wacky Christian who is unable to accept and love and holds to those pesky absolutes. And, while it's true that the comment in the movie is made that only the Sith hold to absolutes (and that that particular premise makes it difficult to follow the whole good vs. evil theory in the movie...or should I say Jedi vs. Sith, since we don't want pesky good and evil labels with any interest) I think this should be as upsetting to just about every other religion as it is to Christians. After all, there are absolutes in Islam, aren't there?

In a lot of ways, it makes me want to just isolate myself from the media in general, in all forms, so that I am no longer a party to their subtle campaign of propaganda that glorifies violence and immorality and villifies anyone who holds to an absolute distinction between right and wrong. But I don't think even that would make a dent. At the end of the day, no matter where you go, you're caught between the opposing forces that want you to be immensley tolerant of everything and everyone, except the intolerant (which has been clearly categorized as a substitute term for the Christian community.) So while Christians are imprisoned in China and made to be slaves, or massacred in the Sudan, we are supposed to tolerate those who do this, rather than seeing it as an offense against mankind. (Putting aside that if it was any other people or religious group being treated this way, the world would be up in arms to defened the defenseless...somehow it's ok because those nutty Christians have absolutes and that makes them evil. Absolutely.)

What a world.